I’ve been working my ass off for the past few weeks. Why? Coz we’re moving back in to our home after the major renovation! Then, we’ve been having problems with the guys at home. One kept on threatening us to kill us by burning the house down, while the other keeps on dictating everything without even lifting a finger.so, basically my mom, I and my lil sis have been busy with all the lifting,washing/cleaning and etc.all of a sudden, my elder sis came home and said I didn’t do anything at all.she wasn’t even around to see what we’ve been doing!and yet, she keeps on dissing me on how useless I am and I’ve been only at it for a day.hello, I may wake up late.but I do it till laye at night.we kept moving things till 1230am daily. U don’t know shiit about it and yet, u keep on saying how useless I’ve been.must I snap every single thing I do? Must I record every movement to proof that I’ve been helping out?I’m not the kind of person who loves to show off.I love it when I do something without them knowing.It’s been my nature to do so since I was a kid.but nooooo.. U just had to insult me.every single time.yes, I’m fat.yes, I’m not as smart as you.yes, I’m not as active as you.yes, I’m not attractive like you.I’m useless.I’m nothing.my existence is just a hindrance.fine.where were u when we were busy moving out? I had to work too.I couldn’t even sleep at home coz our brother was too busy throwing things and hurting us.what do u know bout it?u weren’t the one who tried to break up the fight.u weren’t the one injured.u weren’t the one to clean up after the mess! It was me and mom!u don’t know shit and yet u just loveeee to judge me.why?is it so fun to hurt be and abuse me verbally? Ive been covering up.for u since I was a lil kid. U loveee to lie to our parents and u still do.why must I be in it? Why? I didn’t ask for it.seriously.how bad do u want me to be depressed.I’m at my lowest point and I’ve had it.first, abang.now, u! Every year.before raya.there’s always something hurtful for u to say to me.can’t I have a life without any verbal abuse at all?can’t we be a happy family for once?is it impossible for us to be happy for only a day? No one has been supporting me since I was a kid.parents didn’t even bothered to attend the graduation event till the day itself (coz someone said something).parents never supported me in any activities that I’ve participated ever since I was in tadika.never in my life, I was being praised for doing something good.all I get is, it’s a waste of money, time and it’s useless.such great family support no?